[He doesn't want Erik to go. He thinks Erik probably should. Shinjiro may not admit to it, but he's been struggling a long time--it's that impulse to make yourself hurt when nothing else makes sense. Erik, the only one he's ever told his story that hasn't told him, it's not your fault, can make him hurt.]
Or maybe just an answer.
[Maybe just a reason to keep going, as guilt threatens to tear him in different directions.]
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[He doesn't want Erik to go. He thinks Erik probably should. Shinjiro may not admit to it, but he's been struggling a long time--it's that impulse to make yourself hurt when nothing else makes sense. Erik, the only one he's ever told his story that hasn't told him, it's not your fault, can make him hurt.]
Or maybe just an answer.
[Maybe just a reason to keep going, as guilt threatens to tear him in different directions.]