[ sometimes lance misses it. actually, most of the time he does. but when that happens, the other part of his brain is so quick to make him feel guilty for it, to remind him of all that he'd lost and all he could have prevented and... lather, rinse, repeat. even now he wonders if his being here at all is selfish — if undoing his regret is just a perk, rather than the true motivation. if the opportunity to be out there again, chasing that adventure and rush, was more what drew him in than anything else. ]
I went to school for it, y'know? Not that necessarily, but. I wanted to be a fighter pilot. I was good at it, too. [ he'd even go so far as to say it came almost naturally to him, despite all the hard work he'd put into it. ] And, yeah, it sucked and it was scary and crazy and insane but...
[ but. ]
But I spent years dreaming about being out there. And, man, it was everything I thought it'd be and more.
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[ sometimes lance misses it. actually, most of the time he does. but when that happens, the other part of his brain is so quick to make him feel guilty for it, to remind him of all that he'd lost and all he could have prevented and... lather, rinse, repeat. even now he wonders if his being here at all is selfish — if undoing his regret is just a perk, rather than the true motivation. if the opportunity to be out there again, chasing that adventure and rush, was more what drew him in than anything else. ]
I went to school for it, y'know? Not that necessarily, but. I wanted to be a fighter pilot. I was good at it, too. [ he'd even go so far as to say it came almost naturally to him, despite all the hard work he'd put into it. ] And, yeah, it sucked and it was scary and crazy and insane but...
[ but. ]
But I spent years dreaming about being out there. And, man, it was everything I thought it'd be and more.