[ text ] un: aragaki; like 4 am

[petsthedog]

[It comes on the network like an intrusive thought -- because it is. Because Shinjiro can't sleep, even with all the talk of distracting activities like movies and pumpkin carving and costume parties. (Where do you even get costumes on a spaceship, anyway?)

Because he can't stop thinking about what Olexa said in that building, at the end. Would you die trying to get that stone back? Cheri's motivations were selfish, but then, aren't theirs too? So-Yeon's hadn't been, and while she'd surrendered the orb, what if she hadn't? What about the next mission?]

do you think the orb is worth killing people for

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[bossily]

I'd give up my regret if it meant the people I care about undoing theirs. Or if it meant people who needed their regret undone more than I do getting things accomplished.

[It sounds like such a simple answer, something so quick and direct. But she knows that it never is that simple.]

And I'd like to think that I'd try to stop someone here from killing, but what if someone's death was always supposed to be a fixed point? I'm not so sure stepping in to fix things is the right thing to do in every situation. It's more complicated than that. You know?

[petsthedog]

what's any of that supposed to mean?
someone needing to fix their regret more than you
or the death bein a fix point thing

[Shinjiro doesn't really believe in fate, or god, or any of that kind of thing.]

[bossily]

It means that if I feel someone's regret is more important than mine, I'd have no problem dying to ensure they managed to get an orb that might help them.

Don't worry about the fixed point thing though. It's more personal musing than anything. So the simple answer to your question is: it depends on who someone here was trying to kill as to whether or not I'd step in.

[petsthedog]

[Excuse Shinjiro he is feeling an Entire Way about people's regrets being more or less important than others'. It's fine. He's fine. Everything is fine.]

how'd you even gauge that kinda thing
is it how many people're dead or what, like someone tryin to save a country? a planet?

[That totally doesn't strike at the heart of the struggle he's having right now about if letting people die to reverse the death he caused isn't basically one step forward and several steps back, or anything. He's so fine.]

depends on what
how shitty they are or?

[bossily]

[Yep. Everything here is fine. Absolutely fine. And in no way leaving Clara questioning her choices. Nope.]

That could wind up being a factor. I'm not really sure how to answer that until I've been put in the position of having to stop someone. The way the past couple of missions have gone...anything's possible.

[petsthedog]

guessin that means you weren't in the group attackin lionetta hq
i dunno if i could pick and choose who to let die or not
you never know who they got to leave behind

[bossily]

Thing is, sometimes you have to make choices when you don't want to or when you weren't expecting to have to. And the only options available are all terrible, and you have to decide in a matter of seconds what the least awful option is. You can discuss hypotheticals all you want, but it's different when you actually have to make decisions in the heat of the moment. I used to think that I'd always be able to make the right choice. But I know now that sometimes there is no right choice. It's just a choice, and everyone has to learn to live through the fallout from your decision.