[ text ] un: aragaki; like 4 am

[petsthedog]

[It comes on the network like an intrusive thought -- because it is. Because Shinjiro can't sleep, even with all the talk of distracting activities like movies and pumpkin carving and costume parties. (Where do you even get costumes on a spaceship, anyway?)

Because he can't stop thinking about what Olexa said in that building, at the end. Would you die trying to get that stone back? Cheri's motivations were selfish, but then, aren't theirs too? So-Yeon's hadn't been, and while she'd surrendered the orb, what if she hadn't? What about the next mission?]

do you think the orb is worth killing people for

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[unclesam]

[ It's the question Sam's been trying to answer. Would answer more of, if he wasn't aware of how Shinji was painting people like Sam as cowards, as if any of them were close to what he thinks of them. Wounded, Sam thinks. Hurting. Young, too, if he had to hazard a guess. Not beyond sympathy, but that doesn't mean Sam's gonna be a blank canvas for the kid to project whatever he wants onto. ]

I think you need to consider that not giving you a simple answer to a complicated question ain't cowardice, no matter how hard you need to convince yourself and others of it.

[ Yeah, he's seen what Shinji's said to other people. ]

you wanna talk more, come find me in the kitchen. if we're both sleepless enough to talk about this, then we're also awake enough to do it in person and do some food prep while we're at it. might as well put in the work. the company might do both of us some good.

[ It's the end of the text conversation. Shinji can take Sam up on the offer to have this talk eye to eye while putting in some of the necessary station work, but Sam's not gonna keep engaging this via text where it will only tilt the kid further. ]