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[The date, 3rd of October, has him feeling rather pensive again. Just as he thought he would figure dealing with Father, getting Al his body back, he is yanked back here again. It's.....frustrating, to put it lightly. As much as he wants to scream at Viv to send him back. He knows he must have been pulled back here to help. That they need him. That Ed maybe hasn't done enough. Gathered enough orbs to earn that reward yet of getting Al back. Yet.

He sits in the sunlight room, pocket watch open at his lap if anyone approaches but he does turn on the feed.]

You think this will work? Gathering the orbs? To fix things? Is it worth it? I just feel like I've been trying to fix things for so long, not just here, but back home too. I feel like I was so close, and I got pulled back here again. And I can't help wondering. With some of the missions. The goals they give us. If at some point I might get something, some line I won't want to cross. For as much as I do want to fix things.

[He sighs, shaking his head as he isn't sure what more to say in his musings. In his worries. He figures even that much might be too much. That he might end up regretting even that. So he ends it there.]

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Disobeyed orders.

[He doesn't go into detail. On explaining why, how he had refused Kimblee's orders in Briggs. Just that very basic reason. Even that is probably enough. That Ed refused to obey orders and ran. Of course Suzaku does not have all the context. Some of it Ed is still keeping tight lipped about here even after over a year. Not that he doesn't trust some of his crew members, but more he worries on if someone else from home shows up it might not be his friends, allies, and he knows what happened to Hughes when he knew things they didn't want him to find out.]

Right.

[ The blunt explanation, a vast contrast to Ed's previous openness, doesn't go unnoticed. Over audio, Suzaku's reply comes through with the same reserve as always — any curiosity or judgement firmly buried. It helps that this conversation has already given him more than a few guesses on what those orders may have been. ]

I won't pry. Whatever you've done before coming here isn't anyone else's business.

I had my reasons. Didn't agree with what I was being told to do, is all.

[It's that simple. Ed stuck to his morals. Even here. The missions. He knows it doesn't always work out for those left behind. But he tries to help where he can, at least. Tries to do what he can for however long they are there. For the locals. To try help them while they are there, before finding the orb and leaving. Even when he knows it makes things harder for himself, he still sticks to his morals on these missions. On not using a gun.]

That's what I assumed.

[ Because it'd be pretty strange for anyone to willingly disobey orders they did agree with. Anyway, when it comes down to it, the reasons aren't all that important. What matters is the current situation. Where they're allies, if only by necessity. ]

Either way, my offer from before still stands. If you ever need help or a training partner, let me know.

I can always use some sparring partners. I'm used to sparring every day with Al, back home together. I try keep it up as best I can here, keep from getting too rusty.

[So he won't say no to the offer. Not at all. It's important, good, to keep up training to be prepared with the missions. Ed doesn't want to get too rusty. And it helps in keeping him from getting too restless if he burns off some energy.]

I'm the same way. Even when there wasn't anyone to spar with back home, I always tried to make time to stay in shape. That seems just as important to maintain while we're here.

[ Or, in the absence of Knightmare frames, more important. ]

Whenever you're free, let me know. I'll see you in the training room.

Sure. I can see you there. As long as you don't mind the auto-mail, my metal prosthetics.

[Ed isn't sure how used to that Suzaku might be. In sparring with others with prosthetics, that weight difference. Let alone that Ed might with them hit a little harder potentially than the other might be used to. Figures to give the other a heads up in warning, to be safe. To be sure if the other is okay with it.]

No, I don't see why they'd be a problem.

[ Sure, he's never sparred against someone with prosthetics before, metal or otherwise. Even so, he's confident in his ability to adjust. ]

Just making sure. I know nobody else here is used to, familiar with auto-mail prosthetics is all. It's different, the weight, how hard it might hit in comparison to regular limbs. So I figured to check.

[So Suzaku would be aware what he was getting into. Ed is no expert, no Izumi. But he could generally hold his own alright between his hand to hand and his alchemy. He just wants someone to spar with hand to hand to avoid getting rusty.]

Thanks, Ed. That's considerate of you.

[ And it brings up an interesting point. Sparring is all about understanding and working within limits based on each of the participant's capabilities. That's hard enough to gauge when it's simple variances in speed and strength being measured, but factoring in the abilities and other strange things he's encountered since arriving... Well, it gets a little more complicated. ]

We can always take it slow at first, and see how it goes. That way I can see how significant the difference is before we go too far.

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Yeah, sure. I was only going with hand to hand. Wasn't figuring anything that major.

[He doesn't expect anything that hard out given it would just be simple sparring. Practice. They wouldn't be going all out in really trying to hurt each other or anything. He does not figure that it would be anything that hard out.]

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