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[chrysology]

I made a promise. It's been four years. I know it's taking me longer. Because I refuse to go about it the easier way, but. I'm trying. It's why I'm here. A promise I made to my younger brother, Alphonse. And I know I'm on more limited time to keep that promise the longer it takes us to fix things.

I just. Can't help worrying. I'm not used to being apart from him. Realizing how bad I can be without him prodding me to get something to eat or go sleep. Don't suppose anyone has advice on figuring something to help with sleeping? Or at least just. Sleeping without waking up from nightmares?

[Because. He is not the best at taking care of himself left to his own devices for the most part. He's not been without Al since the younger Elric was born that he can recall. Or at least not for this long. For months like this. Ed's always had Al there to fuss at him to ensure he eats or gets some sleep. That he doesn't get cold sleeping with his stomach exposed or whatever little thing. Ed doesn't have that here. Not anymore. And it's still taking some adjusting that he is finally admitting he might. Might need help on. This particular time of year won't be helping either, given the date. This being the month he and Al burned down their house to leave to get their bodies back.]